Falling Into Grace
Updated: May 8
It was a beautiful day! December 25th 2011. We had opened presents early that morning and had breakfast with my mom. From there we went to my sister's house to celebrate the day with the rest of the family. We would exchange gifts and eat together before my nephews and niece went on to celebrate with the rest of their families in the afternoon. It was at this time that we usually headed out into a park somewhere to spend time outdoors and enjoy the day in nature, in appreciation for the world we live in. You could say it was our small family tradition.
This particular day, the weather was very mild for northeastern Ohio. The temperature was in the 50s and we were enjoying the reprieve from the cold and snow. We wandered around the park enjoying the sights. The river was full and rushing due to the snow melt. It felt good to be alive.
We had left the trail and were climbing up a hill, and to get to the trail just above us we needed to get around a tree that was sticking outof the ground at an angle. I helped my daughter get around the tree and up, then maneuvered around the tree myself. As I turned around to help my wife up, she lost her footing on the wet ground and started to slide down the hill on her stomach. Immediately, I jumped down to grab her, and as I did, my feet went out from under me and I began to slide down the hill after her. We were both sliding uncontrollably for about 20 feet when my wife disappeared before my eyes! She had dropped off the edge of a cliff and I was next.
It was at that moment that everything shifted for me. Everything for a moment went completely silent and time slowed down, and I saw everything with such clarity: The trees. The river. The situation I was in was clear as the clearest water there could be, as if you could see the bottom a lake with no water there. At that moment I heard my voice in my head say, "So Be It."
Let me step back a moment. I don’t want this to just be a story about a situation that happened to me, but a recognizing, an acknowledgement of a moment in my life that happened to me before that day. A moment that is experienced by myself as, "So Be It." A moment where my awareness expanded beyond what I have previously thought possible. Time slows. Vision clears. Sounds become distinct. Emotions, feelings and thoughts have a distance between them. The best way I can explain it is that it was like a falling into or a dropping into Grace. There is a knowingness, an experience of the world that far exceeds my everyday life.
It is these moments that have been a driving force in my life. It is these moments that have been a calling for me to release that which gets in the way of being able to experience this as everyday awareness. To have that depth and width of connection with the people and animals and the rest of the world. To see and hold the world and all that are in it in truth, as it is.
That is what I would like these writings to be about. I would like this to be a beginning of a deeper investigation into what it means to live and what it is that gets in the way of Being in that space of clarity. Being our Divine nature. What are the defenses, habits, wounds, beliefs, and fears that we hold in place that hold us back from living and being happy? What are the defenses, habits, wounds, beliefs, and fears we hold in place that keep us back from seeing each other in the truth that we are all Divine? What stops us from being able to love ourselves and others fully?
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this!
A little bit about me.
I have been practicing Energetic Medicine for over 20 years now. What that means is I help people find their way back to Freedom and Wellbeing through the use of many different tools such as Energetic Healing and repair of our many different energetic bodies, Belief System identification and restructuring as well as Psycho-Spiritual Ecology and Spiritual Direction.
I work with both individuals and groups. If you are interested in a personal session or setting up a group class/workshop, let me know.